December.

December has always been the month I look forward to the most. It is the month where the year finally comes to an end, and the month where it's time to tie up loose ends and make amends, a month that has the best holiday season - CHRISTMAS.

I've been picking myself up over the past two months, trying to focus in school, saving up for exchange. But I realised that I actually don't have people that I can talk to whenever the need arises. I used to have, but now I don't. I have essentially little to no new friends in school that I can hang out with. I find it hard to fit it, I find that I've somehow lost myself along the way. 

Although I've learnt a great deal and changed a lot. and am now trying to focus on exams and getting a substantial job. I feel like there's something missing. Which I don't know what. On good days, such things don't cross my mind. But on other days, it does. 

But well they say you live your life mostly alone, and when you die, you die alone too. I just hope that this 'rough patch' will become a smoother one. And I'm still praying for better days and better outcomes. X