april thus far

I thought I was in control of the things I'm doing. But i know that these things are things that I shouldn't be doing. I put myself at risk and I potentially put others at risk too.

Reckless decisions and all, I finally met someone who made me laugh all the time. That thing we shared at the last moment before you walked through those doors, that is what make me miss you and, there are still so many days left.

I finally understood what he said when I wasn't to cry and be soft. Because those people dont mean it.

April thus far has been a month of reflection, and there are decisions that i must make. however, I sure hope that there would not be much repercussions. and that i would learn to make the right choices.

i know God is with me on this, after a session with a classmate. having backslide-d like mad, i found what he said comforting and reassuring. because He would not want us to do anything bad.